A little something about you, Thalia (though I rarely call you that). I will write about how we decided on your name some other time.
Today you are 80 days old or young, I should say. Manu and I are the only people you see all day every day. So you recognise our voices and smell instantly. Good morning is a word that lights you up. You are a good night sleeper these days, so am I, thanks for that.
If there are moms or moms-to-be reading this post, I would like to share a few things that aren’t always expressed out loud. Apart from the happy and well behaved child (mostly in public) that she is, she does have her outbursts. There are days when she want cuddles all day or cry even when she is held or just not drink milk or start crying for no reason or being gassy. When she was a month old, she used to be distress and cry every night between 8 and 10 or 11pm and fall asleep crying. The point is you never really know the reason. Every night was like solving a puzzle. We would strip every layer of her clothing to see what could be the cause. Because newborns are just out of the womb from all that fluid and their body is constantly evolving.
It wasn’t all that easy initially but ultimately we get there. You won’t believe me if I said I didn’t even know to hold a baby when they first gave Thalia to me for skin-on-skin. But by the end of the day, I could hold her with more confidence. You got no choice but to be confident because that tiny human is totally dependent on you.
A lesson that I learnt in this two and a half months is what I would like to end this post with. Babies can sense the mother’s heartbeat and emotions. So stay calm while handling them because if you are in distress they are never going to calm down. It easier said than done, I know. I have always tried to remember this when I get worked up. Eventually I started remembering it every time she cries and it became a habit to relax before holding her. Do try, will you?